Why I am doing this --- Why ??

It is Tuesday bright beautiful sunny morning 8 C. Monday was 
Thanksgiving Holiday. Tuesdays, no Darts, no Bowling so it is very 
long weekend for me. Today I will go for my walk and make some calls. 
It is cold but I am all dressed up in layers and have my gloves and jacket on.

It is 10.30, I am at Rouge Hills conservation area, hiking with my son, on 
the unpaved trails. Beautiful scenic view, nature all around. Scarlet Red, 
the Fall color, looking great behind the trees with Olive Green leaves 
around.

Some spots are very steep, difficult to walk for me. I found a dried piece 
of wooden stick, from the skeleton tree, for my support. The skeleton 
tree is lying down, by the stream. I think, he is resting, taking a nap.

The crystal clear water of the stream, sparkling under the sun, giving all 
the beautiful colors. Sun is smiling up and above on the clear blue sky. 
Everything is so perfect so full of life.

The wooden piece, the part of the skeleton tree, worked well for me. It gave 
me support and confidence to walk around on the uneven path, with stones 
around. I am thankful to this tree.

I started thinking about the tree. I can visualize, this tree, in his days, 
must be giving shelter, helping out so many people.Children playing around.
Parents sitting under, having chit chat and busy with Barbecue. 

Even at this stage he is able to make a difference. I see the Birds, squirrels, 
and other creatures enjoying their time around him.The skeleton
tree looks so peaceful, satisfied with his life. 

I think those, who have purpose in their lives, to serve others and to spread 
happiness around, will always get inner peace. This Skeleton tree, I think, is 
like a point to ponder for we Humans.

It is 11.30, my son gone home. I am at Tim Horton, to enjoy my time alone 
slot, my small coffee with half hot water and busy writing my Blog. 
I don't want to write my Blogs, anymore.

Every Saturday, while going through the comments on my Blogs, I start 
thinking that why I am writing these Blogs. What is the purpose, when 
everything is the same. No one is ready to listen, to show patience.

The Retired Priest, the Father, and others, all doing the same, as was 
before, nothing changed. It means, I was not able to make any difference, 
in anyone's life. Hanna and Niklas have the same miserable lives.

The Retired Priest always targeting other Religions. My Temple Friends 
talking about their own Religion. It is all so messy in my Retiree's Blog 
reading  group. It looks like Race of Religions, is going on. Everyone 
wants, to prove that his Religion is the best one. 

While I believe, all Religions go to God. It doesn't matter how you  
practice. But no one listens to me. My Reader friend doing 2 Jobs always 
get tricked by the Wicked Worker. Nothing changed.

No one stopped targeting my son. No one understands me that I love to be 
mobile, to do things on my own, making dishes for my family, doing my 
laundry, walking to Tim Horton, going to play Darts and Carpet Bowling.

I fully enjoy, whatever I am doing, but this Blog writing, I don't enjoy at all.
After reading your comments on my Blog, I start thinking that why I am
doing this. Who is listening to me. No one.

Anyway, it is 1 pm. I am done with my coffee and with writing my Blog. 
Time to walk home, to enjoy the beauty around, to listen to the Birds. Black 
Squirrel, the White Butterfly, the smiling colorful Flowers all are here, to 
make my day.

Life is great, gift from God. Value every moment. It wont come back. We 
have to keep that in mind. Every moment is precious to be valued. Trust me 
my Friends.

I will keep on writing my Blogs, will try my best, to make a difference, 
in the lives of people around. May be some day it start working, may be.