I wont blame my age

It is Sunday 12th of May, here it is Mother's Day. It is cold cloudy
rainy day with 9 C feels like 5 C. Last night I was in Aurora, at my
elder brother's place to have dinner together. I was back around 12
midnight. Aurora is about an hour away from my place. 

Our whole family was invited but my eldest grandson and the middle one, 
skipped. They knew there will not be anyone of their age. The youngest one 
I mean the Slurpee Boy went with us. We don't have to push our kids for 
the things, they wont enjoy.

Before asking anything from anyone, we have to put our own self in their 
shoes. Things will be much easier for everyone in the family, same with 
friends. We have to avoid to have "No" as an answer.

We enjoyed there but one thing was keep on bothering me. My sister in law 
was not looking in good shape. I know that she is much older than of my age
and also that she is not well for the last couple of months.

But what I noticed, she was totally disconnect.I was worried about her 
condition. It was her normal behavior. She was looking sort of stranger to 
me with her blank eyes. I use to talk to her every other day since she got 
sick.Things look different when we see people in person, I mean face to face.

When we getting older, we go on losing our sleep time. Every night there 
is different scenario. Last night my sister in law, was in the back of my mind.
I wont blame my age.

I started thinking how things change so quickly. We don't know, what's 
going to happen tomorrow. We can't predict future. We have to value every 
moment in our hand. Past is done, we can not turn the page.

I had a bad night still I was awake around 8 in the morning. I can not sleep 
till late and also don't go to bed before midnight. It is Sunday so my routine, 
after my breakfast, is to spend some time in the TV lounge, with my son.

I was on computer to go through my Facebook messages and Mother's Day 
wishes from my daughters. My youngest one called, others will call after.
They are at work right now. My son is planning nice dinner for me.

It is 11.30, time for my walk. My son is going to Gym, he will drop me at
my favorite place, my second home, Tim Horton. It is 12.15, I am enjoying 
my time alone slot, having small coffee with oatmeal raisin cookie, writing 
my Blog.

Coffee House not so busy here, just couple of old faces like mine with their 
family. I think, having Mother's Day treat. My son planning to take me for dinner tonight.